Sick and Missing Someone

Just a message to someone I love when I am down with flu... (Don't worry, I doubt it he'd read my blog anyway hahaha)

I remembered the time when I was as ill as this time,
I remembered you were the one who comfort me the most,
I missed how you lend me your shoulder to lay on, 
I missed your caring hands that would pat my head, 
I missed your soothing words that made me feel loved and cared,
I missed how we talk nonsense (well he's the only person I ever talk nonsense with apart from my sister).

Now I only ask you to chat with me once a week,
make me feel comfortable,
make me feel like you still care for me,
even though you don't love me anymore.

I can't admit I don't love you anymore,
I can't say I still love you either,
I just feel I still like you,
and I really want you by my side,
because it seemed like your the only one who understand and accept me. (Damm I soo hate you for letting me feel this) 

There's this guy in my class looks and even acts like you,
it scares me and also hate it that it makes me think of you,
it feels like fate wants me still to remember you,
how he talks, how he teases, darn it so much like you.

I tried to avoid this guy, but it seem like we keep meeting, somehow,
If it was you, maybe it was a different matter but this??

I want to see you, talk to you, hold you and everything
I even want to hear from you that you still love me. Weird? Yea I know... its been long since we broke up...

I missed those days...

I miss you... alot